Paroles
The happpiness of life depends on the quality of thoughts
My parents never loved me so it's suicidal thoughts
I wish i raised you better when I had a chance
Look how you turned out with no life and no plans
My mother told me I was born a mistake
I looked nothing like her what more can take
Your broke my heart so bad what more can you break
Child you're disgrace what make more can we say
She told me she tried to prevent so she couldn't conceive
Two months later put pillow on my face I couldn't breath
Death is something that I wish upon myself that i need
I wish you were not born sometimes I wish you were deceased
I cannot blame it alcohol cause she was sober
When she said those words it felt like my life was over
Plotting on my death man I couldn't hold up
The words she said made me feel little I couldn't grow up
I'm just accepting whatever you are because it's life
Even though you not what I expected I guess it's right
I told my girl I never experienced love I never got any
Shes like how do you know if this is love when you never got any
It Left me chocking I didn't know what to say
Fuck life and my parents that's what I used to say
Accepted something's in life will never be okay
In life I feel like letting go something just tells me stay
I feel like sleeping and never wake up again
I wish i could feel love just to numb the pain
I just hold back when it comes to love I run away
And I'm just tempted by drugs i plot to fade
Maybe I'm just tripping talking bad on my mother
Maybe She has good heart just hurt by another
Maybe she was only taught hate and that's all she knows
Maybe she's raising me the only way she knows
Name calling on mom as long as the name will fit
Problem with us is that we love when it's too late and shit
Every night she would bring a different man over
And take drugs drink booze until they ain't sober
Neglected by own hurts but you gotta grow up
Ass whipped no reason blame it on hang over
Sat in corner asked one question like when will it end
If she's feeling so much pain why does she have to pretend
Why does she have to hide the pain confied with the booze
If you willing to risk it all tell me what can we lose
I wish i could put your face in the water and let you breath in
Wish i drank those pills earlier to prevent convincing
Karma hitting back it brought me a child as demon
I'm being fake to everyone the real me is a secret
I might be smiling outside but I'm internally bleeding
A simple girl cannot give a mother's love I'm needing
I cannot suffocate even though I'm still breathing
I cannot live in a world where hate is what I'm feeling
Sometimes I question myself am I even worth the living
Sometimes you gotta give more more then you'll ever get in
Khutso Mogale
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