Lyrics
I was staring at the sky
Singing toxic lullabies
I was staring at the sky
I'm still here but I'm ruined by the hate
I still fear that I might die today
Hope I'm good the day the Lord gon' call my name
May I rest when my soul you come reclaim
Knowing when I walk up on that stage, shit gon' change
Aye baby you should know I fly the whip just like a plane
I can't let you go, swear you the only thing that's real
I've done bad, yeah I did my wrongs
I ain't even healed yet
Aye baby can you hear that
Making love sounds, I know you feel that
When I push up in it you get real wet
We need to fix our strings and put ourselves back
Together, through whatever
We need to do better
Wish I knew you was crazy when I seen you in your header
Running with my foot soldier, man I feel like Shredder
If this my last day well consider this my letter
Just know I don't got regrets
I did what I did
Everything happens for a reason, it is what it is
In the age of dying young, I can only sit and wonder if I'll make it to the day where I can see my kid
I'm still here but I'm ruined by the hate
I still fear that I might die today
Hope I'm good the day the Lord gon' call my name
May I rest when my soul you come reclaim
Knowing when I walk up on that stage, shit gon' change
Aye baby you should know I fly the whip just like a plane
I can't let you go, swear you the only thing that's real
I've done bad, I did my wrongs
I ain't even healed yet
Until death knocking at your door, it seems like no one care
You keep knocking down the door just to find that no one's there
When you lay me down alone, I been used to that for years
Don't think about showing up, crying all fake tears
Sometimes I feel the reaper creeping, think my time is near
I'm so solid, I won't ever lie and hide sitting in fear
In my mind fighting battles, I lose myself I fear
Then I look up in that mirror and see that I'm right here
Trapped inside my songs I need help
Same melody on loop, I get stuck will you listen
I don't need no sympathy, I just want you to listen
Cause honestly I'm real tired of talking to myself
You can't walk in my shoes, I barely do it myself
Been taking perkies for my brain, sometimes it help
Chase it down with liquor but it's damaging my health
I'm on the wrong side of heaven, the righteous side of hell
I'm still here but I'm ruined by the hate
I still fear that I might die today
Hope I'm good the day the Lord gon' call my name
May I rest when my soul you come reclaim
Marcus Esparza
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