So let's stop these words
We don't need to scream
I just don't think we're thinking clearly
So I'll bite my tongue
And try to release
I just want us fixed so dearly
Please stop and listen to me
I know your worst fears being unhappy stuck your routine
There's no mend
You're rooting for a whole different team
While swinging at myself hoping for some serene
My head it just keeps getting colder
no sunny days that happen up here
And as I grow older and older I start to trust my fears
The only grass that's left green
Is up high with my family
Sometimes I want to cave in
Embrace this calamity
So let's stop these words
We don't need to scream
I just don't think we're thinking clearly
So I'll bite my tongue
And try to release
I just want us fixed so dearly
Medication just isn't quite hitting the same
Staring at blue light for hours hoping it settles the pain
And when I try to sleep I hear myself right next to me
Wishing myself the worst
So maybe next Fall
I'll stop staring at the walls
And make something of this mess that fucking swarms inside my skull
The only point of being droll
My shaking body hits a lull
And as I have one last request
It's just end these crippling thoughts
Please stop and listen to me
I know your worst fears being unhappy stuck your routine
There's no mend
You're rooting for a whole different team
While swinging at myself hoping for some serene
And I swear
I'll set my head straight
Please give it some time because it's not going away
But I really wanna stay
So sick of thinking that I'm no good
Wish my bad thoughts were at least understood
Been five years since I was sat down and told
I'd be feeling sick till I choose to fold