Lyrics
Hate when you ask how I’m doing
I know that you’re just assuming
I’m better now, not bleeding out
Get outa bed on a good day
Lately that’s all I can do, hey
I go through hell, to hide myself
I think about new ways to hurt me
But don’t want my mother to see
It’s not that I feel undeserving
Just blame it on the chemistry
That’s why
I can’t cry
Im too anxious
Restless mind
I can’t shake this
Said I’m fine
but we both know I’m faking
I’m not feeling numb,
I’m just feeling everything at once
Whatever I do I can’t slow down
Please don’t leave me alone now
Cuz when I stop, my demons talk
I’m coming off apathetic
I play it off like it’s an aesthetic
Clearly I care too much, but I’m fooling everyone
I think about new ways to hurt me
But don’t want my mother to see
It’s not that I feel undeserving
Just blame it on the chemistry
That’s why
I can’t cry
Im too anxious
Restless mind
I can’t shake this
Said I’m fine
but we both know I’m faking
I’m not feeling numb,
I’m just feeling everything at once
ELLEN MURPHY, MCKENZIE ELLIS, MICHAEL MACALLISTER, ZOE MOSS
Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Songtrust Ave, Walt Disney Music Company, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.