Bad thoughts are coming back
Got me exhausted, matter of fact
And for a second I've been stuck
In the factuality, the fallacies
Became my fantasies
Keep following, my deceased
Model of a man I wanna be
Don't wanna be, like my father
Rather be the prodigy that I really am
No man can tell where the time went
When you will go, I don't know
Where you will go? I wanna know
What is the definition of a home
Premonition of a finite signed
Contract with life
Its night time
And I'm tryna take time
In a world where you cant take time
What's mine? just my own hands,
Fallen plans, all these wasted chances
I glance to myself in the mirror
I'm just a mere reflection of who I am
I'm just a mere reflection of who I am
Mirror mirror in the wall
Can I have it all? can I have it all
These walls never talk back
Even if I hit 'em hard
Bombarded with all of these knowledge
Of why I should just go
But no, mama wouldn't like that
Imma go and fight back, Can I really fight back
Can I decide what my fate would be
Keeping faith in these fake saints
Looking down on me with disdain
My brain is stained, I ain't the same guy
When I was kid, I'm sick
And I need to fix it
I took the ticket hoping it would fix it
I took the damn ticket hoping it would fix it
But it brought me to where I am today
And before I lay down forever
I will never understand what I really want
I'm not the best
But I'm not less and far from who you are
I'm not less and far away from the stars
I'm nauseous cuz of my insufficient sleep
I keep hearing voices, and these noises
Causing paranoia toying with my joy
And embroidered beneath my skin
Are sins I wanna rinse,
But since I keep sinning
I'll never be clean
And I'll never be glee
I will just bleed
Let me be and bleed